Of laziness and the human mind.

It has been a while since I blogged,My indolent nature has grown from a rare streak of color to completely being the rainbow permeating my life!! I'm surprised at my supine lifestyle..Get up at 6 am, sleep at 10pm, as if 8 hrs of sleep isn't enough, I sleep enroute my commute too! So its about 9 hrs of sleep I get every day! Darn,,I miss childhood. I'd sleep lesser before, eat 4 times a day, not feel sleepy after a carb meal, not gain an ounce of weight after eating cheesecakes and carbs and still manage to fit in my high school clothes! I sleep more now, eat lesser food, HAVE TO take a mini nap after lunch at my desk, avoid rice and stick to raw veggies and soups (blaaaaaa) and even after religiously working out an exercise pattern, can't seem to fit into my 2 year old clothes! Its just so unfair, that as a child, when I didn't care as much how well I fit into my clothes, and now when you're in your late 20s it really matters how you look, I can't seem to be happy with it at all. So also when you're a child, all you want to do, is grow up, get to be an adult, no school, no assignments, etc Funny once we get to be an adult, all we want to do is go back to being a child! Wonder why God fashioned the human mind to want something "Missing" in our endless list. Why is it that the human mind is never satisfied with the state of things. I can think of a zillion things that are going on with me that make me happy, yet my thoughts dominate over the things that could make me happier. I'm happy with my red dress, but wouldn't I be happier with a golden dress. Oh yay!I bought that awesome golden dress finally..but I be I'd be happier if I had golden shoes to go with it! the list goes on---At times I think its so much simpler being a squirrel or a ladybug, they don't cover their bodies with clothes, they move around naked in their bodies! Do they also have wishes and yearnings? Do they feel they're getting lazier as they age?! Maybe I need to undertake a course in studying animal behavior that would help in understanding human behavior!?